From 3-04-06 Diary entry-

Unparalleled

Unique

Matchless

Never Again

After two and a half hours of blissful pain, I ended up with a pretty nice tat. It already has changed my life. Redemption through suffering I guess. The physical pain has given the psycological pain an outlet and has thus left my body. Crazy how that works. I feel renewed strength and comfortability in myself. I am whole without another, when I thought I was forever to be ruined. I see now. I see what I have done, why I have done, how I became undone, what I should have done and what I must now do.